our 4th yr together!

Feb 29 is our anniversary of getting together.. today while on the way to work.. i had been thinking of wat happened this 4 yr.. i only remember those unhappy things.. sad, unhappy memories and those life that i was accused by his dad that i nv restrict him to lose so much money in gambling.. i feel that together 4 yr not long but also not short but all r unhappy memories.. i know that after i been with him i change alot.. smoke and become very bad temper..
All the hurt that he done to me i can forgive but i will nv forget it.. i was wondering y r we gals so stupid we obviously know he is not the guy for us but we die die want to be together.. and make our life miserable.. we together after a few mth later he go in to serve NS and decided to sign on.. even he so long nv come out i also waited for him outside.. y i so stupid.. even when he hurt me doing those that none of the woman can take it i still beg him to stay with me.. yyyyyyy? so wat if i regretted now.. no one i can tell cos i make the choice and ended up having ds.
But i contented having aloy by my side.. even now dh not with me.. i reach home can c ds face also feel so happy but whenever he come back we will sure have quarrel.. now even talk on the phone also can quarrel.. sian lor.. this is not the life i want.. i want to be happy.. if i know my future is like that i rather be a single mum.. happily.. so wat i have a dh he nv help me when i feel tired looking after ds.. even i sick i still have to do all by myself..
Now nothing i can do to turn back the time.. only thing i can do is walk on and on until ds grow up.. and this is my only wish..

Valentine's day

1st surprise.. he send a bouquet of Chocolate flower to my coy.. So surprise.. but hor i guess it a few days ago cos he asking for my coy particular saying that he need to fill in for the first person to call in case of emergency.. then i keep asking him to say he keep quiet then i forget it lor.. but i know but i nv expect it's a flower.. cos he say the thing i want most.. the thing i want most is a new wedding band for 2 of us but i know he not enough money to buy that..

2nd surprise is.. he sms me sweet sweet thing.. first time lor.. i request so many yrs liao this is the first time he take initiative to sms me.. but hor after this sms make me feel scare lor.. cos he seldom talk all this suddenly like that scarli he do wrong things again.. haiz.. sian lor.. no wonder my friend say i siao.. he do i also not happy he nv do i also not happy.. i myself also dun know wat i want lor.. haha.. poor dh.. really kelian him at times.. :p will try to upload some pics asap.. due to my bluetooth problem..

This yr valentine's day dh do the most things for me that make me happy but i also scolded him for wwasting money..

this is the valentine cake we had at swensen



this is the flower he gave me

growing up

ds first time dare to sit those thing with movement

normally ds dare not take those insert coin games.. then this is the first time he still dare to sit when dh insert the coin..

ds singing

china boy and barney boy

Worried!

ds had been sick for 1week already.. at first thought he getting well soon.. as his fever subside but after his fever subside he started to cough and block nose and we bring him to doc again and continue with his medication.. but still nv get better.. his cough is so scary.. and when he ah chew all mucus come out but his nose still block.. this make him have sleepless nite as well as for me.. once he cough he will wake up.. and he will cry so loudly and helplessly.. but wat i can do is carry him, pat him and talk to him.. and apply vicks on his chest.. after applying he feel better and sleep but after awhile everythings repeats again..

i was abit of worried dun know wat really happens to him.. i just ask nanny to bring him to the doc again as i afraid that cny no doc available.. hope everything is fine.. this cny he cannot eat much cos he was sick and i dun know wat to do if ppl keep giving him to eat.. nanny say i can say the person as i have the rights to do so.. but i dun want to appear rude also.. haiz..

nanny called and tell me that doc say ds found to be abit no breath and had already give him gas to breath if at nite still the same then have to review tomolo then c how.. i was worried that he will get asthma..

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Share something i so excited..

Yeh.. just receive email that i can collect my keys on Feb the 16yeh.. super happy so i can move by May.. Although after moving will have more problems with financially and will tend to quarrel but hor now stay with them also quarrel so i c no different lor.. haha.. and maybe we will from head to toes is debt but at least i more comfortable and have a place i call my home..

But also got problems.. scare later pil say want to move with us again.. then everything is back to square one.. if that's the case i will rent out will not let them rent out their and we lugi.. they keng everything i also have to keng for my sack and ds sack.. they selfish and no need to be generous.. my dh already very generous to them so i no need to be the same.. dh already pawn his favourite gold necklace for his dad.. i already damn piss off liao.. and dh just say my father want u want me to do.. then he win lor.. can work hard who ask his dad to be so slack.. even my mil cannot take it.. like a woman like that.. hehe..