envy

after seeing all my friends in happily in a r/s or given birth i feel so envy of their life.. and y is my life is a mess now.. and y am i the one who r strongly affected and he totally live his life so gd.. and enjoying..
my friends r all around my age.. some married, some in a r/s but where are the so 幸福.. and me go through so many ups and downs in my 5 yr of r/s.. and now feel so wasted of my 5 yrs.. and even now i can't really have my single life but i dun feel regret having ah boy.. my only regrets is to get married and at a young age i am already not single and is divorced.. feel so unfair..

decision making

after much consideration i feel this is the only way out for both of us.. and even we talk abt that issue will only end up quarrelling.. so might as well dun waste each time.. and he only want freedom.. so i won't want to keep a man with me for the sake of staying together.. like that i won't be happy at all..
maybe he will be happier this way.. but still have to c each other and talk to each other on ds.. so also cannot totally get away from him.. for me life might be the same.. this time round nv really drop 1 tears.. only drop once when i think of all the things that happened.. whether it's happy or sad memories all will flood whenever i saw the wedding pic.. maybe our love had long faded.. only that we r dragging dragging.. now i feel if i continue to drag will only cause us to hate each other more.. maybe give each other to have each of our life separately..
my feeling i have nv let him know before.. and i nv cry infront of him on this issue cos i dun want to make him pity me..
and i promise myself to be happy everyday and laugh and laugh.. to prove to him that without him i can also live well and even better than with him.. and can look after ds very well alone.. and prove to man that woman doesn't need man..

catching ball

dh is trying to teach him how to catch ball but i think still need very long time for him to learn how to catch.. he will only put the hand there but when the ball come he no reaction de..

gun

dh playing gun with him and both of them will pretend to die when kena shoot.. this is the first time ds can play the gun for so long.. and he can really act die for awhile.. but now he throw the gun aside again..

bowling

dun know where he learn after he knock down the pin he will say yes and with action.. maybe learn from dh ba.. we also very surprise when we c this action of his.. he really love to imitate ppl now.. when his daddy put the pin covering his face he follow also.. haha

OMG

this ds of mine really headache lor.. i wear this pyjamas and he saw and ask me mama where u going.. i say this is for sleeping de lor.. then he say he want to wear.. and keep pulling my clothes so bo bian i take off and let him wear lor.. he really should be a gal and not boy.. haha..

pose!!

while i putting my hands behind my back and he walking behind me.. he suddenly call me say mama wo xue ni.. then i do other pattern he also follow.. then i give him a few pose and ask him to let me take pics and he agree.. now he is following everything i do..