pls give me strength to tolerate my heartpain

third day is a terrible day for ds.. crying once he reach the door step.. but i can't do anything cos i need to let him get used to it.. teacher distract him while i go out.. and he stop but after a while cry for mamamamamamama again.. c liao really so so so heartpain.. in a moment really feel like withdrawing him but.. sooner or later he will have to face this problem again.. and al his cries is wasted.. just can bear with it until he used to it.. my heart is bleeding seeing him cry until so jia lat.. pls give me strength and make aloy a brave lil boy.. in my eyes he always a brave boy.. since birth under the phototherapy for 8 days ut nurss say he a gd boy all kids under photo will cry until very jia lat.. but he is still sleeping well.. even all the blood withdrawal he had since his birth he inly cry for awhile.. and now he knock his head he nv cry nly rub y himself.. but after i send him to cc i feel that he still a weak lil boy who need lots of mother care.. tolerate and tolerate..