separation anxiety!!

after i send him to cc i find out that he is super afraid wen i not by his side..even my il carry him away while i eat my lunch ca c that he is not happy and my il carry him up to my dh grandma house i go up can c that he is so sad sitting there alone even my dh ask me y..
and yesterday my ds ex nanny request to bring ds out for dinner so i agree i thought ds will be ver happy seeing her but me and my dh find it strange that he is so sad and look at me with a ke lian look.. but he din cry.. and nanny call me y aloy so unhappy and not talking.. i say he is it.. then when i go and fetch him.. he really dun even want to c nanny and his family and very fast bye to them.. then when they r out of sight then he smile at me and regain his activeness.. and reach home pattern come out already.. even my il ask me how he react when he c nanny isay sort of sad sad mil also surprise...
even at home i cannotleave his sight he will come looking for me in crying face..
something i nv regret bringing him to cc is he really can sit down and concentrate on how to make lego and can sit down andc those flash card..

ds watching tv

my ds is now addicted to the tiger beer ad.. this is how to lie down on his tummy and watch that particular ad..

5th day in cc

today as per normal reach cc door cry but at least he wiling to let teacher carry.. he only cry awhile when i leave i peek outside he ok liao.. at 10 plus i go and peek he totally gd sit there with class and teacher to watch barney on the tv..
but can c that he is tramatise.. cs he dun want to sleep at nite even he nv sleep a wink in cc.. then sleep less than an hr wake up cry for more than 30 min for mamamamamama just like in cc... then last nite din even want to sleep sit on the bed and play then once i tur over he cry and touch my face forcefully i turn over he ok.. so poor thing..

pls give me strength to tolerate my heartpain

third day is a terrible day for ds.. crying once he reach the door step.. but i can't do anything cos i need to let him get used to it.. teacher distract him while i go out.. and he stop but after a while cry for mamamamamamama again.. c liao really so so so heartpain.. in a moment really feel like withdrawing him but.. sooner or later he will have to face this problem again.. and al his cries is wasted.. just can bear with it until he used to it.. my heart is bleeding seeing him cry until so jia lat.. pls give me strength and make aloy a brave lil boy.. in my eyes he always a brave boy.. since birth under the phototherapy for 8 days ut nurss say he a gd boy all kids under photo will cry until very jia lat.. but he is still sleeping well.. even all the blood withdrawal he had since his birth he inly cry for awhile.. and now he knock his head he nv cry nly rub y himself.. but after i send him to cc i feel that he still a weak lil boy who need lots of mother care.. tolerate and tolerate..

ds on his daddy helmet

this ds har at times really buay tahan.. thought he very muscular take his daddy helmet and ask me to put on his head until he walk until so unbalance..

2 days of CC

1st day he totally ok.. nv cry nv come searching for me.. only cried when a new gal reach school at 10 plus then he also follow.. according to teacher he is ok nv cry other than when the gal cried.. nv want to eat or drink milk.. even all the kids is preparing to sleep he just sit on the chair and entertain himself.. teachers say he is soft..
2nd day.. i say bye bye he nv bother so teacher ask me to leave ten i peek outside CC he walk to the door and cried for me.. and teacher bring him to play toys after awhile cry and stop... teacher advise me to let him stay there longer to get used to the afternoon teacher.. so will try this out today.. will go down and peek and go.. cannot c too long will heartpain.. c him so lonely..

sending ds to CC

after much consideration finally make up my mind to send ds to CC.. and luckily is nanny is supportive as she say can learn more things.. and after dicusson with some mothers and also no job so decided to put him in to adapt while i out of job.. so officially will send him in on 23/06/2008.. hope he will adapt asap and enjoy playing and learning in CC.. as for the sick and cying part i think is the passing phrase ba.. so wish me gd luck and have to bear for his cry and just go off.. and hope he will not hate me for that..
when to tom and stephanie to buy a barney bag for him then come back pack 4 sets of clothes, towel, milk bottle, water bottle and milk powder container i really find it too small dun know how to squeeze all in.. alamak.. really i blur mother buy such a small bag..


ask him to smile give me this expression..